The Curve Ball

I'm sorry I haven't posted for a while - life has thrown me a huge curve. I had the wind knocked out of my sails on Monday, June 30th as the strongest, most influential man in my life -my father - passed away. As we spent the past week getting ready for the celebration of his life, we spent quite a bit of time reflecting on him, going through pictures and sharing memories. I realized more in the past 7 days what an amazing, caring, fun loving person my father was than I honestly had ever seen in my life. I guess the saying is true that you don't know what you got 'till it's gone. Don't get me wrong - it's just that things definitely take on a new, deeper meaning when they are no longer there.
Daddy was the fixer of all things wrong. He fixed skinned knees, broken hearts and speeding tickets - yes - speeding tickets. (I got a big one once that he laughed at and then paid for because the story behind me getting it was so funny) I think back on several times in my life when all I wanted was him. On 9-11 he was on his way back from Alaska - I didn't feel even remotely safe or at ease until I knew he was back across the boarder. Having him around made everything - I mean everything - seem like it would all be OK. Things have a way of working themselves out.
Several years ago he took 6 of his grandchildren to Disneyland. Last Januay he decided he needed to take my girls - they weren't around for the first trip. This past May Dad, Rose and Ann took the girls on their greatest adventure - the flew to Disneyland and spent three fun filled days playing with Grandpa. They were all beaming when they got off the plane but especailly my Dad. He had successfully taken each and everyone of his precious grandchildren to the greatest place on earth!
I will miss my Dad always but he will live on through his 5 children and 8 grandchildren.
Thank you Daddy for being my Dad - for being the best Dad you knew how to be. Thank you for instilling the values in me and my children that you did. Thank you for showing me through yourself how to be a better parent to my own children. Thank you for teaching me to be strong but not too strong, to brave but not too brave and most of all to always have fun no matter what you do. I love you dearly and always will - you will live in my heart and in my memories forever. Scope out the good fishing spots in heaven - someday many, many years from now I will see you again. I love you!!