Life Goes On

Sadly, on Sunday April 30th sweet little baby Maddison passed away. Today Mom & I chose to close the shop for little bit this afternoon to attend her memorial service. We felt honored to be asked to attend.
Since we learned of her passing, I have been doing a lot of thinking. Thinking about my own children. I now look at them just a little bit differently - they truly are precious gifts. When they start getting in a mood & fighting I find myself pausing just briefly to listen before I go play referee. When the girls are off giggling and playing I find myself lingering just a little longer to hear that sweet noise before I join them in a cup of pretend tea and that plastic play food sandwich. I hug them just a bit longer (maybe harder too) and at bedtime I kiss them one extra time on the check after they are asleep.
My children drive me crazy, push my buttons and plum wear me out by the end of the day but I wouldn't want them any other way. I have found myself thanking God each night for my three precious ones and sending a prayer Rachel's way to help her get through her loss.
Hearing the stories of how strong Rachel was in caring for baby Maddison made me question my own abilities. Could I do what she did? Would I have the strength? Thankfully my parenting journey hasn't taken me any further than a couple of ER visits at it's worst. I pray each day that I will never have to test my strength and courage in such a way, but if I ever do I will think back to Rachel & Maddison to search for guidance.
Thank you Rachel for showing me how to be a better mother. Maddison's time on earth may have been short but she touched the hearts of many and although I only saw her through pictures, she has left a lasting footprint on my heart.